Starting something

I never keep things up to date, because I find i’m mostly busy all the time with many things and nothing. I wonder if i could ever really truly complete something, something tangible something I can look at and say I made that. I mean i did feel this way once when i first moved to the bay area, I made an art book. A collective of works through out my years in college and beyond. Perhaps I want to focus on a story next, or do another smaller collection of works. Perhaps I should finish what I started with my children’s book and seriously get it published. Just thought dumps. How bad do i want it is the question … how bad do i want it ?..